Full of Emotion

Between last night and this morning, I'm full of emotion.  I'm talking every emotion possible.  It could be the pregnancy hormones or it could be the fact that my first born is going to Kindergarden or it could be the sadness in the community lately of death of the young and not so young but not old people or it could be I miss my grandma so much still everyday.  Who knows....  I registered our Gavin for Kindergarden yesterday.  I mean we really are going to do this.  I didn't know how soon this moment would really come.  I mean it seems not that long ago that I was being flown over to St. Francis because he decided that he wanted to meet everyone 6+ weeks early.  He was so anxious to come into this world.  There was a lot of prayers said over him because he seemed to have a few issues but God worked them all out.  He is the one that made the best thing happen to me besides my husband, whom I adore and love deeply, Gavin made me a MOM for the first time!!  I fell in love with him in an instant because we were so blessed with him and I knew there was going to be much blessings in the future.  Now he has and is grown to a caring, loving, and amazing little boy and brother.  I'm not just saying these things because he is our child but he truly is all of those things.  We are thrilled he will be going to Kindergarden and it helps me a little that he was able to go to Pre-K last year.  There are so many things he is planning to learn and he can't wait to do so and I can't wait to experience them with him.  I'm sadden because Grandma Ruth would have loved to see both of the boys' accomplishment.  She would have been in the classroom helping out all those around her just because that is how she was.  You could tell her love for all around her because it just exploded out of her.  I think she is the reason why our Griffin is such a cuddler.  She would cuddle with him all of the time and sing to him.  Griffin may be entering PreK this year, only time will tell but if he does, we will be thrilled for him as well.  He is just as much of a blessing as Gavin is to me.  I love all of my boys (that includes Kerry) so very much and I pray they know and feel my love for them always.  I'm excited for the new little boy to join us in all the fun too.  I wonder often if he will be like Gavin or more like Griffin or will he be just like his Daddy.  They all have great qualities but I do know they are or will all be handsome just like their Daddy.  I'm so full of love, feeling of blessed, and thankfulness that I just thought I would share my thoughts this morning.